Lost the moon while counting the stars

I have always been selfless when it comes to love towards the people around me. I have always put them first before myself. But throughout the years, I have always face heartbreaks until a certain point in my life I decided to not care anymore. I have started choosing the ones I should love and I should leave. But because my heart is not so well, I did not even choose I just tend to push everyone away. I have been in so much heartbreaks and being taken for granted where I tend to do the same to other people without me noticing it. I really don't have a clue how can I ever heal myself. To the ones who stayed please understand that I'm currently in so much pain and I need your help to bring back the old me again. To the ones who left, I'm sorry. maybe I was the mistake for pushing you out of my life but there's nothing I could do to save it anymore. I am not really myself right now. I can't even love myself how can I do the same towards you. Stop taking someone for granted. I hope this never happens to anyone, but the harsh truth is, that it does. Often we're so ingrossed in our work that we forget to value, appreciate and recognize those that we're actually working for. We get so wrapped up in our own lives, that we forget the people that make up our life. I know people who regret the last words they said and others who never get to share how they genuinely feel. Whatever is taken for granted will eventually be taken away. That's when we end up missing the most the person that we least appreciated. Because we never think that the last time will be the last time. We think we have more but we don't. Appreciate what you have before it turns into what you had.

Kodaline

Hi. Never have I ever thought of writing on this blog again on 2018 just to let go of something that I never imagine that would really bother my mind so much. For you, I could never thank you enough for everything that you've done for me. Honestly, I just couldn't tell you the truth of what I'm feeling inside because the situation doesn't permit me to. I hope you would understand. I really felt your lost when you decided to let me go. I don't take things for granted as how you think I did but as much as I wanted to hold you in my heart, I just can't. I'm as hurt as you're feeling right now and there's nothing I could do to fix it. I'm sorry. I never thought that I would be as broken as you but I'm currently feeling it and I personally don't understand it myself. My heart have been heavy for months now. My mind kept thinking about you. My soul died. Each time that I hurt you, I was hurting myself too. Sad, depressed. You named it. I'm currently feeling it all. You've always been the summer to the rain and I don't even know how you did it. I realize that it has been my lost, not yours and I know how much I begged you to stay you wouldn't because they say, appreciate what you have before it became what you had. I hope you'll be happier without me because currently I'm not and I don't want you to feel the same way. There's nothing else in this world that I wanted other than stop hurting you. You have a pure heart and you really deserve someone as loving as you are and it's definitely not me because I failed before. My prayers are always with you. I'm sorry.